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So recently my goals of life are literally just survival. Be okay again, spend enough time in the calmness of my new house that I learn to function properly and become a person with a decent eating and sleeping schedule. By the end of these six weeks I'd like to be calm enough and sane enough to be rational again, I'd like my anxiety threshold to be much, much lower and my daily anxiety level to be around 1/10 instead of 2-6/10.

Once that is done, the direct motivation of that is university in late September and from university this year I want to results for the best possible outcome: a 2:1 overall, and to publish a book on kindle.

My plan to publish a poetry anthology, focused on sensation, touch, feel, tangibility and texture - how these concepts cross with emotion and experiences. Its title: "A Prayerbook for Animists."
Very pretentious, I know. The message conveyed is that the supernatural and magical and ethereal and the "high" "sacred" or "special" parts of life can be found in the sensation most associated with the low, common and not-so-special parts of life, touch.
(I even have an idea for a poetry collection after that called DARKLAND about sleeping that will probably never happen unless the first one is successful enough to justify it.)

It would be priced very cheap, I am thinking £1-2.50 maximum. I want it to be a very low key affair that I can stick on a CV or have in an intro to an article or poetry entry in an opening letter. Something I can say to a stranger after a good chat somewhere, "oh, if you're interested, its on kindle for £2!" and it won't be too outlandish to hope that they'll give it a go. I'd rather make more off of something cheap than make a lot off of something expensive, at least as an amateur.
About 20 poems, maximum 30 poems.
I think I can do this, I have the cover sorted out, I need to do more investigation of the finances, hire my local proof reader, bother all my tutors and friends and of course polish, polish, edit, polish, rewrite, polish, delete, edit, rewrite, delete, edit, polish, polish, edit etc. until the end of the year. My goal is to have it out by next summer. Heck, I have a trello board for this shit, you know its serious.

I'm writing this out here to make it feel more real, watch this space...
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So recently my goals of life are literally just survival. Be okay again, spend enough time in the calmness of my new house that I learn to function properly and become a person with a decent eating and sleeping schedule. By the end of these six weeks I'd like to be calm enough and sane enough to be rational again, I'd like my anxiety threshold to be much, much lower and my daily anxiety level to be around 1/10 instead of 2-6/10.

Once that is done, the direct motivation of that is university in late September and from university this year I want to results for the best possible outcome: a 2:1 overall, and to publish a book on kindle.

My plan to publish a poetry anthology, focused on sensation, touch, feel, tangibility and texture - how these concepts cross with emotion and experiences. Its title: "A Prayerbook for Animists."
Very pretentious, I know. The message conveyed is that the supernatural and magical and ethereal and the "high" "sacred" or "special" parts of life can be found in the sensation most associated with the low, common and not-so-special parts of life, touch.
(I even have an idea for a poetry collection after that called DARKLAND about sleeping that will probably never happen unless the first one is successful enough to justify it.)

It would be priced very cheap, I am thinking £1-2.50 maximum. I want it to be a very low key affair that I can stick on a CV or have in an intro to an article or poetry entry in an opening letter. Something I can say to a stranger after a good chat somewhere, "oh, if you're interested, its on kindle for £2!" and it won't be too outlandish to hope that they'll give it a go. I'd rather make more off of something cheap than make a lot off of something expensive, at least as an amateur.
About 20 poems, maximum 30 poems.
I think I can do this, I have the cover sorted out, I need to do more investigation of the finances, hire my local proof reader, bother all my tutors and friends and of course polish, polish, edit, polish, rewrite, polish, delete, edit, rewrite, delete, edit, polish, polish, edit etc. until the end of the year. My goal is to have it out by next summer. Heck, I have a trello board for this shit, you know its serious.

I'm writing this out here to make it feel more real, watch this space...
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I will weep like a wound
and ground like a powerline -
nothing compares to me
acting out.

I'll heal up like a zipper,
once inside myself
I'll cry
and I'll stay in the dark
until people worry,
until my eyes grow stale,
until I can hear people talking
again.
Healing
????????

emotional recovery
i just found some fancy metaphors and chucked them together idk not feeling this one much
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Drape a black cloth over my heart -
to trick me into thinking I can sleep again.
How perfect,
for a chest full of tricks.

I look at you the way house eaves
curl over to look at houses.
A back written in rain and moss,
turned against the sun.

With clumsy feet
I found you as children find puddles -
and I went fishing for mud and play.

I could give you all my words,
wrapped up in the fact that I'd never speak again.
And it would mean nought
in the face of hurt.

I'll give a gift to the world
instead,
my words will wind around paths
and roads,
makes passages of wayward sea.
Air in still places,
still places made unstill
by me.
Potentially
an old friend sorta......dumped me for lack of a better word. trying to get over myself.
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I'm counting friends
the way I thumb pages and read ahead.

I prefer being able to hold my friends,
I'm old fashioned -
nothing quite like
the creaks of reading an old friend.

Old fashioned rites
are what my hands lack;
laying a friend flat,
paper settling,
satisfaction the colour of pages
- a distant brown.

Satisfaction like
a second look at
a freshly rearranged bookshelf,
and cats,
sitting in windowsills,
afternoons to yourself.

There is an art
in friends.
Knowing them,
just right.
The days are coming away in clumps
I am losing what I am,
September knows.

My brain is poached,
standing on its tippy toes -
extending and crying,
sobbing in exhausted grunts,
filing away September.

September is a council,
and a church,
a registry of names and marriages,
a union of dates and queue of days.

September holds
the tantalising instructions
on how to become a colleague of your blood.

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Bryony
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Hello - I’m Bryony.
I'm a poet of sorts, but I also love to get crafty now and again. I'm a uni student studying religion and creative writing, currently recovering from acute anxiety.
Find my witchcraft etsy here -> www.etsy.com/shop/WardWitchery…

Mainly my poetry is about my mental health, my relationships, my pantheism, animism and witchery as well as other fun things like that.
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BloodshotInk Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2015

Hey! :rose:


I wanted to drop by personally to say thanks for joining TheWritePlace! I’m excited that people seem enthusiastic about it :giggle: If you wanna know more about our group check out Our Rules (there aren’t many and they’re all mostly common sense to me!) or just ask! If you fancy getting more involved we do have positions open which you can find out about here. For now I hope you enjoy the group and find it helpful. If you have ideas on how to make it more useful, suggestions, feedback, anything, just let us know - and when our chatroom #TheWritePlace officially launches (soon) I hope to see you in there too :love:


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Mew-Mew-adict Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks darling <3
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Wikita Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for adding "Confessional" to your collection! <3
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Mew-Mew-adict Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
no problem x
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DoloriferousFrost Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you for the fave (which originally said 'face') <3
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